This morning I dropped my three off to school after the summer break. We’ve had a lovely summer so I was sad to see them go back. I knew that the days would seem long and quiet for a while until I got used to it again but the girls were so excited to go back and see their friends so I didn’t feel so sad for them. It’s nice to see how much they enjoy school and that makes it a lot easier for me to send them.
However, it was Little Boy’s turn to start school today. He’s only just turned three and is barely potty trained bless him. Compared to the girls he seems much younger, I’m not sure how much he understood about going to school but we have been preparing him for what is coming for a while now.
I’m a pro at the back to school routine now. My eldest is in Year 6 so I’ve been doing this for a while. Both girls have been upset going into school at various points so I’m used to leaving a crying child at the door, but today as I took Little Boy in I realised that it doesn’t get any easier.
Despite all we had done to prepare him, he didn’t want me to leave. He clung to my arm and tried to pull me in and the teacher had to basically rip him off me and shoo me out. I didn’t get a chance to kiss him goodbye or tell him I love him or even hang his coat and peg up, I just gave them to the teaching assistant as she ushered me out of the door. And yes, I could still hear him screaming.
A friend of mine was waiting for me as I came out to see if I was ok and she made me feel better but all I wanted to do was rush home and have a good cry. I was shaking like a leaf and felt like I was traumatised and in shock. I’d told myself I’d treat myself to a little shopping trip on my own to take my mind off it, but all I wanted to do was get home.
I know that he’ll settle in, and I know that the best way is for me to drop him and leave and not to drag it out, but boy it doesn’t get any easier, despite what I know from experience. Your motherly instincts kick in and you just want to rush out of there clutching your baby in your arms and never look back. Who needs school anyway?!
It’s true what they say, time flies when you are having fun, and although I’ve been honest that I’ve found these three years with Little Boy really difficult, it’s been the best time too. I’m not quite ready for my baby to be at school. The house is quiet and whilst I have lots of plans to keep me busy, it feels like the end of an era now they are all in school.
Did you drop a little one off at school for the first time today? I hope it went better than our first day!
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