Back To School – It Doesn’t Get Any Easier

This morning I dropped my three off to school after the summer break. We’ve had a lovely summer so I was sad to see them go back. I knew that the days would seem long and quiet for a while until I got used to it again but the girls were so excited to go back and see their friends so I didn’t feel so sad for them. It’s nice to see how much they enjoy school and that makes it a lot easier for me to send them.

However, it was Little Boy’s turn to start school today. He’s only just turned three and is barely potty trained bless him. Compared to the girls he seems much younger, I’m not sure how much he understood about going to school but we have been preparing him for what is coming for a while now.

I’m a pro at the back to school routine now. My eldest is in Year 6 so I’ve been doing this for a while. Both girls have been upset going into school at various points so I’m used to leaving a crying child at the door, but  today as I took Little Boy in I realised that it doesn’t get any easier.

Despite all we had done to prepare him, he didn’t want me to leave. He clung to my arm and tried to pull me in and the teacher had to basically rip him off me and shoo me out. I didn’t get a chance to kiss him goodbye or tell him I love him or even hang his coat and peg up, I just gave them to the teaching assistant as she ushered me out of the door. And yes, I could still hear him screaming.

A friend of mine was waiting for me as I came out to see if I was ok and she made me feel better but all I wanted to do was rush home and have a good cry. I was shaking like a leaf and felt like I was traumatised and in shock. I’d told myself I’d treat myself to a little shopping trip on my own to take my mind off it, but all I wanted to do was get home.

I know that he’ll settle in, and I know that the best way is for me to drop him and leave and not to drag it out, but boy it doesn’t get any easier, despite what I know from experience. Your motherly instincts kick in and you just want to rush out of there clutching your baby in your arms and never look back. Who needs school anyway?!

It’s true what they say, time flies when you are having fun, and although I’ve been honest that I’ve found these three years with Little Boy really difficult, it’s been the best time too. I’m not quite ready for my baby to be at school. The house is quiet and whilst I have lots of plans to keep me busy, it feels like the end of an era now they are all in school.

Did you drop a little one off at school for the first time today? I hope it went better than our first day!

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Back to school - it doesn't get any easier



  1. September 11, 2017 / 4:46 pm

    They all look very grown up and smart in their uniforms! Touch wood, I’ve never had a really rough drop-off experience but I remember quite a few of their classmates at nursery school who had the crying routine down pat. As I’m sure you know, they do settle in and their class teacher will be a pro at distraction and settling techniques. Best wishes for a settled, peaceful term! #MMBC

    • September 11, 2017 / 7:04 pm

      Ah thank you! Apparently he’s fine when he’s there but he is still crying at drop off 🙁

  2. September 12, 2017 / 1:27 pm

    When my eldest two started school they were both only just three as well – it feel so different this time round with the youngest as she’s almost 4.

  3. September 12, 2017 / 1:33 pm

    Beautiful post, my middle child started reception yesterday and I felt the same. I just wanted to get home and have a little cry. It was just as heartbreaking second time around. I know I will feel the same when it is time for my baby to go #schooldays

    • September 12, 2017 / 2:22 pm

      It’s so hard isn’t it. I know I’ll get used to it, but the house seems really quiet too now all three are gone!

  4. September 12, 2017 / 11:49 pm

    Sorry to hear it didn’t go well, hopefully things are going better now. (I get really confused because school round here is reception and rising 5 year olds – we don’t have nursery classes in school. Nursery school/preschool is a totally different thing and separate. To me younger children shouldn’t be in formal uniform with the structure of school). Thanks for linking up to #SchoolDays

    • September 13, 2017 / 12:14 pm

      Yes, they start young here, but it’s only for 2.5 hours in the mornings or afternoons. It’s lots of learning through play and does help them get ready for school. He’s young for his year so he’ll start reception when he’s 4 even though some in his class will be 5.

      • September 14, 2017 / 8:27 pm

        N was in nursery from 11 months, then nursery school took them from 2y 9 months, but it’s not school, until they’re in reception. Funny how they’re all really different

        • September 15, 2017 / 10:15 am

          It’s different all over the country, some of my friend’s children in other areas of Wales start in school full time at 3!

  5. September 13, 2017 / 8:34 am

    Bless his heart. We had such a traumatic time with my son going to pre-school, nursery and reception classes, it really doesn’t get easier does it. Hope he settles soon #schooldays

    • September 13, 2017 / 12:12 pm

      It’s awful isn’t it. I hope you’ve got through it now. This morning my little boy didn’t cry so that’s good news!

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