It's Sunday evening, we've completed our first week of home schooling and our first weekend on lockdown. It is all still very surreal, if I don't think about it I can just about believe that things are normal and we're ok. If I start to think about what is actually happening I get a rising feeling of panic. Boris Johnson, Prince Charles and other key figures have all tested positive for the virus, it really is indiscriminate.
Today the headlines were that the lockdown situation we find ourselves in at the moment could last for three months - until June. I'm not surprised by that news, but despite the fact that I half expected it, it still came as a shock. I think I still keep thinking I will wake up and this will all be a bad dream.
Home schooling has generally gone well, as long as we stick to a routine. I'm finding it very full on though and it's difficult to give everyone my full and proper attention. I don't really get a minute to myself and the pressure of planning exactly what we do falls to me and I worry a little that I'm getting it right. I am just grateful that none of the children are in a crucial year at school.
Being stuck at home is difficult for me. I am used to going out every day, seeing my friends or wandering around the shops. Without all those things life just feels a bit like "groundhog day". I'm trying to keep myself busy with little projects and I know how lucky we are to have a nice home in a quiet area that we can still use to go for our one exercise trip a day.
I'm still finding that I'm really stressed out by the food situation. Panic buying is still happening and it's a struggle to get food. Social distancing in supermarkets means that the queues are huge and it's next to impossible to get an online delivery slot somewhere, and if you do there is no guarantee that anything you want will be in stock. We are managing on fresh fruit and vegetable deliveries from the local greengrocer and essentials being delivered from the local zero waste shop. I have managed to book an Ocado shop for next week, but it was so much more expensive than normal and half of what I wanted was out of stock so I'm wondering whether I should brave a supermarket trip tomorrow.
We've managed to have a fun and nice times all together though. This weekend we took our walk all together, including Daddy. We ate yummy food and we sorted the front and back gardens out so that the flowers and plants are all pruned and tidied up and ready to go for the spring. Next weekend I might decorate the front room as we have all the paint already.
I hope you are all coping ok in the current situation. I'm always here if anyone needs to talk - just leave me a comment.