Lately I have been feeling a little down in the dumps. I feel sorry for myself, but I don’t know why. I have felt like this a couple of times and snapped out of it, but I am curious as to why I feel like this sometimes.
I LOVE my children, and I LOVE being at home with them so I don’t think that is the issue. I do get depressed by the day to day chores that go with them…constantly cleaning, ironing, washing. And I know that is nothing to complain about, but maybe that is it? Every day just seems to be more of the same. I go out in the morning, home for nap and lunch, off to school and then dinner, bath and bed. I do go out in the evenings, at least once a week to try to keep myself active.
I don’t have anything to be sad about…but I do feel sad. I have been having headaches and feeling sick. I’ve been sleeping badly, and feeling lethargic in the day. I need to do something about it.
I think it may be a diet/exercise thing. I have always exercised, but I stopped when I was pregnant with Jelly. My previous miscarriage and the SPD I had when pregnant with Jelly put me off exercise when I was pregnant, I had a C section so had to wait 3 months to exercise again and when I did I got trapped nerves in my back and couldn’t feel my legs properly so I stopped. And never started again. I dieted to lose my baby weight but I am less toned and obviously less fit. We all know that exercise provides natural endorphins so I think I should do some, and when I exercise, I am put off unhealthy food somehow so my lifestyle becomes instantly much better.
We are lucky to have a gym in the next town which has a creche so I think I will join there and try to go twice a week, and maybe once at the weekend. I have to do something to drag myself out of this black cloud. I’ve told you I’m doing it, so I’m doing it. I will upload proof later!